Lately I have found it increasingly harder to be motivated for just about anything.
Cooking seems like a chore, laundry (which is a chore) is now just a bore, getting up in the morning is a struggle all in itself… but picking out an outfit for anything is the biggest frustration of all and just becomes more frustrating as I look at all the clothes I can’t wear for a seemingly long time.
Someone once told me (actually, a couple of people have told me) that “once you’re in your second trimester, all of your energy just pops back!” Well, I call BS. Pure, BS.
Whatever woman got all of her energy back… lied to someone. Yes, I feel great most days. But not because I got all of my energy back… it’s just I feel better than I do on my worst days. Which are the days where I feel like I could sleep for a million years and it still wouldn’t be enough.
My husband will back me up on this. There are days where I will get out of bed at a decent hour, get ready and go about my day. However, come 6pm.. I’m ready for the 3 b’s. Bath, book and bed. Let’s be honest…usually, I’ll skip the book and fall straight to sleep. Then there are the wonderful days that I will get up between 11 and noon and not do a single thing (seriously, not a thing) all day but lay there on the couch because moving is not an option. Then of course, there are the days where I actually feel like myself, but that lasts a whole day and then it’s back to exhaustion.
I get it, I’m creating a human. All of my energy is being exerted into doing that and I’m a 100% okay with it. I just wish others would understand that when I say, “I’m tired” or “I’m tired.” I actually mean it.
Making a human is pretty damn awesome if you ask me. The things a woman’s body can do is so powerful.
Let’s get one thing straight though… I’m not complaining about being exhausted. I’m just curious as to what woman told another woman that all her energy came back in the second trimester to where now women today believe it. I was one of those women…. until week 14..15..16..17.. all passed and I pretty much realized it wasn’t going to happen to this woman. Me.
So… here’s where my motivation…. shmotivation comes in.
Being motivated is what started this blog for me. I was motivated that I could impact many or if not, just one life by my opinions, outfits, travel, etc. I was motivated to be that escape goat for those that just needed a breath of fresh air. I was motivated to let this be my voice outside of my own head. So lately, not only have I been exhausted but I’ve felt guilty. Guilty that I haven’t been motivated enough to post more, inspire more, learn more, and even love more. Guilty that I haven’t allowed myself the time to just write. Writing gives me the chance to breathe, think about something else other than the exhaustion and the fact that I’m not motivated and there must be something wrong with me!
I’ve been so focused on not trying to fall asleep during a conversation with the people that surround me that I’ve fallen asleep on you all that read/subscribe to my posts.
So, to get myself out of my shmotivational slump… I have made a calendar list of all the things that I want to accomplish for not only myself but for you all. So, back to motivation for this mommy-to-be. Regardless of how tired I think I am, I will make the bigger effort to post the things that I love and love doing.
Also, all suggestions welcome on how to be more motivated during pregnancy!!