The final countdown is on! With less than 20 days to go, I’m still questioning – “How did this pregnancy go by so fast?!” Each day seems to go by faster.. I’m not sure if that is because I’ve been keeping busy or just by chance? I hear a lot of women “complain” the last month is like 38475983745 days long… but for me, it’s been moving WAY too fast.

Within my last few weeks, several of you have asked just about the same questions – which undoubtedly, I would be asking someone that is pregnant during a pandemic the same thing.

Here are the most FAQ:

  1. How are you coping with delivering during COVID-19? Honestly, I’ve done fairly well during this whole lock-down, stay at home business. We’ve been as careful as we can be. But with the thought of delivering in two weeks, there are things that just make me uneasy. Not because of the masks, or the thought of getting COVID during delivery or being in a hospital. All of that is inescapable at this point. What makes me uneasy is the unknown of the next two weeks. With the recent rise, there are so many questions I have & once my Dr. answers those… I’ll be more prepared. So I guess you could say, right now… I’m just taking it day by day.
  2. How are you feeling? I have my good days and my bad days. My bad days mostly consist of discomfort, or swollen feet. Which both are easily remedied by laying down!
  3. Are you nesting? YES! I’ve managed to clean, re-clean & clean again.. just about everything. I’ve finally put away all of his baby clothes, books, etc. Paul is ready for me to just chill.
  4. Why did you put Holland back in school? We made a family decision to do so for her to have a better structure to her day, to jump start potty-training, mingle with her friends… to have some sort of normalcy as things are about to get much different for her. To easy some worries, the school she attends – the teachers are all wearing masks, everyone gets their temperature taken as they enter the building & after lunch. The kids get their temperature taken when they arrive & after nap time. When I drop Holland off, someone meets me at the door, I do not get to go back to where her classroom is anymore & when I pick her up, someone brings her out to my car. It just limits the amount of adult contact & exposure of people in the building. Which I think they are doing right. We have taken this time to get things in order around the house, reorganize & prepare for Harrison.
  5. Why are you not creating a nursery for Harrison? So, before COVID “hit”, Paul & I were tossing around the idea of selling the house & moving. We had a realtor come look at the house, we had a date to put it up on the market… & then BAM… COVID took over & we decided to postpone that. After many talks, we also decided it would be best to wait until after Harrison was born, so that we wouldn’t be moving either while I was 8m pregnant or while he was a few weeks old. So, since we waited too long to create a nursery & since it would be less than ideal to have vendors/additional people in & out of our home, we have decided to wait. I’ve ordered things here & there for one in the future, so it will eventually happen.
  6. What maternity wear did you buy? I only purchased four pieces of maternity wear during this pregnancy. All of which are pieces I can wear after having Harrison! This, This , This & This!
  7. What are you packing in your hospital bag this time? HA! LESS THAN LAST TIME!! But, I have a whole post dedicated to that coming up!
  8. Thoughts on a baby shower during COVID? Well, I did it. My hostesses made sure to let everyone invited know that if they didn’t feel comfortable attending, that that was understandable. My shower was very intimate, everything I wanted it to be. I think this is really a personal preference & you should do what makes you feel comfortable. My Dr.’s advice has been “live your life” & that’s all we can do at this point. Just be careful while doing so. Wash your hands, be smart.

XO~ Kate

Having HER cake & EATING it too!

My BEST girl, had the BEST day! — Today was less emotional (but I still cried). We celebrated with a TULIP TEAPARTY, guests were asked to wear their “Tea Party Attire”, champagne, rose, sparkling water & tea were served alongside three different kinds of tea sandwiches, cookies, fruit & scones. To top off the afternoon, guests were asked to create their own Tulip Bouquet to take home as a “Flower Favor.”

We had tons of fun with a tea party themed photobooth, all the little girls playing with Holland’s new kitchen from her GeeGee & PawPaw & then of course, the fun of opening ALL the presents!

Holland was surrounded by women that love her unconditionally, as if she were their own child or grandchild. That to me alone, is the most special gift I could have ever asked for. These women know who they are & I’m so very blessed to call them my family. Because as you know it, friends become family & all of these women have.

As I said before, this part of the day was less emotional than her first birthday. I did cry singing “Happy Birthday” because in that very moment, I looked around to see all those important women singing & smiling so lovingly at my best girl & it gave me all the feels. Also because, we made it to year two & I wish I could bottle this stage up as well. Holland is SO talkative, loving, caring, LOUD (like her daddy), independent & has the biggest & brightest personality. I like to think she got the best of both of her daddy & I. We did pretty damn good.

the most perfect decor for our perfect 2 yr old!
beautiful tea sandwiches made by one of my best friends
sweet treats
paper everything for five little girls (except for the drink ware/silverware)
for the women who don’t drink tea 😉
Pop Fizz Clink
the garland I’ve used for both of her birthdays, this year I added tulips
the ONLY cake I buy is from the same lady who made our wedding cake (which this is also the same flavors – Bavarian Creme)
Flower Favors – each guest got to take home their own homemade bouquet of tulips

Here are the fun things that Holland has learned/done in her second year of life:

  • How count to 12
  • She can say full sentences & ask for specific things
  • Her favorite thing to say is “More Peas” – translation: “More Please”
  • She is EXTREMELY tidy; something I think she picked up from me 😉
  • Loves to “I workout” with her Daddy
  • LOVES books, we read every night
  • HATES sharing food; something else I think she picked up from me
  • Learning to potty train
  • How to climb down the stairs unassisted
  • Throwing the ball to “my Hanz”
  • She got her first haircut
  • Had her first Hot Chocolate
  • Eat/drink unassisted
  • & became a BIG SISTER <3
    • there are SO many other things I could list but these are the ones that stick out to me most.

Last year on her birthday post, I wrote a poem that I had come across that spoke so deeply to me as a new mom. So, to my sweet girl – I’m going to repost that every year for you, because there are things that are already taking place that I no longer have to do for you. You are so bright & you learn so quickly which in-turn means that I have done my job in teaching you well but it still makes my momma heart hurt that you don’t need me for it.

So once again my little Valentine, here is the poem that I will hold near & dear to my heart. To remind me to cherish each day, the good & the bad… because you are only little once & only for a little while.

“From the moment you hold your baby in your arms you will never be the same. You might long for the person you were before, when you had freedom and time and nothing in particular to worry about. You will know tiredness like you never knew before. Days will run into days that are exactly the same. Full of feedings and burping. Nappy changes & crying. Whining & fighting. Naps or a lack of naps. It might seem like a never-ending cycle. But don’t forget… there is a last time for everything & babies don’t keep.

There will come a time when you will feed your baby for the very last time. They will fall asleep on you after a long day & it will be the last time you ever hold your sleeping child. One day you will carry them on your hip & then set them down & never pick them up that way again. You will scrub their hair in the bath for one last time & from that day on they will want to bathe alone. They will hold your hand to cross the street & then will never reach for it again. They will creep into your room at midnight for cuddles & it will be the last night you ever wake to this. One afternoon you will sing, “the wheels on the bus,” & do all the actions to never sing that song again…

They will kiss you goodbye at the school gate & the next day they will ask to walk to the gate alone. You will read a final bedtime story & wipe your last dirty face. They will run to you with arms raised for the very last time… The thing is, you won’t even realize it’s the last time until there are no more times. Even then, it will take you a while to realize. So while you are living in these times, remember there are only so many of them & when they are gone… you will yearn for just one more day of them. For one last time.”

I love you beyond measure. XO



Currently I’m in the Second Trimester but during my First you all have had questions regarding how I’m feeling, how Holland is taking the news, etc. So I decided to put together your most frequently asked questions all in one spot! XO ~ Kate

Does Holland understand that you’re having a baby? Yes! She understands that there is a baby in mommy’s tummy – but I’m not exactly sure she realizes it’s a REAL baby, as opposed to her American Girl bitty baby that she LOVES but occasionally throws across the room 😐 However, we make it a priority to explain to her to be gentle & sweet to baby but also show her photos of the sonograms so that she can try to comprehend what we mean. Like when we’re around our friends who have babies, we explain that’s what’s in my tummy. Although, I don’t think it will click until he is actually here.

What was your first reaction to being pregnant? Honestly, “HOLY SHIT!” I also cried, a lot!

Did you have any signs that you were expecting? Yes! I was overly emotional when it came to my friends saying nice things or being their sweet selves to Holland. Also, if being completely honest, when I would have two or three glasses of wine – I wouldn’t “feel” anything.

Have you registered? If so, where? We have! The Tot & Babylist – if you’re interested in knowing what I’ve registered for, go here for The Tot registry & here for Babylist registry.

Have y’all picked out a name yet? We have! 🙂

Were you nervous it was twins? HAHA! YES. But after having two sonograms within two weeks, we were 100% sure it wasn’t twins.

How many kids do you want? I was never really ever sure of how many I wanted. I do know that now knowing this could possibly be my last pregnancy, I’ve been a little more kind to myself & emotional with the belly, kicking, etc. phases.

What are you craving? Burgers! Burgers! Burgers! & Steak! haha

What makes you nauseous/ Have you been nauseous? Oh gosh, this is a fun one. Yes, I have been nauseous. The one thing that made me overly nauseous & still does a little bit is Holland’s dirty diapers. I had to resort to begging Paul to change them or if he wasn’t around – sticking Kleenex up my nose before I did. Fish, poultry, beets, avocado, salad – basically anything healthy that I LOVED was currently the things making me gag.

Have you purchased any maternity clothes? If so, where? So far, I have not.

Have you changed your skincare routine? No, all BeautyCounter products & BeautyBio products that I use are safe for during pre/during/postnatal.

Have you changed your workout routine? This is good. SO, being extremely nauseous until about 18 weeks I had not worked out. I would walk around the block with the family or stretch but working out was not an option.

OMG, what do I even say. If I had to choose one word in the world to describe how I feel, it would be – Grateful. I think it perfectly describes pretty much all of my feelings in regards to finding out we are pregnant, how we found out, the whirlwind of time a frame that was & then, finding out it is a BABY BOY!!

Everyone has a “time frame” on when they want to start having babies, or when to plan for the next. Well, Paul & I had the talk of, “Okay, we’ll possibly start trying around this time.” Then BAM! God said, “hahah… this isn’t on your time… it’s on mine.” With Holland, we were not even considering babies yet. Sure, it was a thought in hindsight that we wanted them but we didn’t want one just yet. But, that’s not the plan God had for us & oh how we are ever SO grateful that it was.

This time around, we actually had talked about 2020 being the year we would consider starting to try for baby number two. Again, God laughed because if my timing is accurate, which it is… I was already pregnant during that conversation.

November of 2019, was nothing other than a whirlwind. There had been several times that I was out with my girl friends & “things” just didn’t feel right. I would either feel SUPER emotional, or I would be – what my friends say now, “just not yourself.” Then one night a few of us were out having the time of our lives when, again, I just didn’t feel right. So I mentioned to them… “Y’all… either I’m pregnant or my body is just needing a change.”

Later that night, the girls insisted I take a test. I just KNEW I wasn’t but figured I would take one to humor us all. As I took the first test, set it on the back of the toilet, I walked away & when it was time to look… I let the girls look because a part of me just didn’t want to & the other part of me knew it was going to say “negative”.

They grabbed the test, turned it over & when I saw the look on their faces (which will forever be ingrained in my brain) I immediately said, “shut up, you’re lying.” They turned the stick around for it to blatantly say, “pregnant.”

We all cried together, because of course, none of us really thought it was going to say yes & the fact that they got to witness first hand, for the first time a pregnancy test saying, “pregnant.” — We favored two more just in case, & those two said “pregnant” too – so there was no denying that I was! Like I said earlier, whirlwind.

The emotions, the high, the “OMG I’m pregnant… AGAIN!”, the “OMG I actually have to tell my husband now!”, “OMG Holland is going to be a big sister!” & all the other feelings that you can imagine going through my brain in .008 secs.

It took about two weeks before it actually started to sink in that we were pregnant. But, it didn’t feel REALLY REAL until I was able to tell my family. I didn’t want to do it over the phone since we live 5 hrs apart. So, we had to wait until Christmas morning – which was almost two months from finding out. IT DROVE ME INSANE. More so because my sister & I talk EVERY DAY & at least once a week she would say, “Are you okay?” or “Have you been crying?” – “Yes, I’m fine. BUT NOT REALLY BECAUSE I’M PREGNANT!” & “No, I just sneezed. WHICH IS ALSO A LIE BECAUSE YES I’VE CRIED EVERY. SINGLE. DAMN. DAY!”

Once I was FINALLY able to tell them, everything seemed to fall into place.

We soon had our genetic testing done, to which then I let one of my best friends keep the secret of what the baby was for our Gender Reveal.

Leading up to that I had so much anxiety/excitement – would Holland get a sister to play barbies, babies & ballet with? Or would she get a little brother who would protect, pick on her & also pick his nose.

I was convinced it was a girl. I would have put my life savings on it that we were having another girl. But, BOY was I wrong. 😉

So, back to my one word — Grateful. Grateful that we are blessed with a girl & a boy. Grateful that God is trusting us to raise these tiny humans in this crazy world. Grateful to have such an amazing husband (that I need to give more praise to than I currently do) that helps me more than I could ever imagine.

Let alone, we are so grateful to be able to carry another baby, to have the most supportive family & friends that surround us, that love our babies as if they were their own & to share these moments with them & even with you.

Tip of the Day: Even on your worst days, remember to be grateful. Always.

XO~ Kate

In the past week I think I’ve cried more than I have in my entire life… & if you know me, then you know that is A LOT of crying.

My mother always says, “We are a crying, laughing, hugging, kissing kinda family… if you don’t like that… then you won’t fit in.” She couldn’t be more accurate. My friends know that I cry… weekly. My family knows that I cry… way too much & my poor husband knows that on any given day, a good book, a funny movie, good food, Holland giving me a kiss or Robin (with Peloton) saying something inspirational, I could bust into tears.

Well, this past week (more like two), has been overwhelming, exciting, joyful & full of emotion. Holland turned one on February 1st, so naturally all week, anything that didn’t fit her, or any photo I came across of her that was anything previous to that day… would make me weep. Which brings us to day. Today was her first day of “school”. I didn’t exactly prepare myself for today, I’m not even sure that I could. But, it came natural, as if we had done if before. Paul & I woke up early, got ourselves ready then Holland woke up, we got her dressed, fed & into the car, like it was nothing. Until… it hit me.

Today was her FIRST day of school. The first day that would start her next (presumably) 23 years of learning, studying, making friends, memories & creating a future for herself.

The day she was born, I always knew this day would come. It’s just.. I never knew how fast it would, how hard it would be & in that very moment (pulling down our street), exactly how my parents felt every time I hit a milestone that created a lump in their throat or that tear in their eye.

Today was that day for me.

I couldn’t swallow back that lump, I couldn’t hold back those tears & I couldn’t let go of Holland’s hand – the entire drive to school.

I never knew how much I loved her until I saw her on the sonogram.

I never knew how much I needed her until I met her.

I never knew how much my patience would be tested until she cried all night the first night we brought her home.

I never knew how much I wanted to breastfeed, until I couldn’t.

I never knew how much my relationship with my husband would change, for the better. We are a team.

I never knew how much in life I was lacking until she showed me the true meaning.

I never knew how much I wanted to stop time until each monthly photo I took of her.

I never knew how much I would hate letting her go today. No one warned me. No one said, “Kate, it’s going to hurt like hell as you walk away.”

I never knew how much I would miss her until I couldn’t watch her on our security cameras at home.

I just never knew…

What I do know now, is that time flies. Everyone said it… they made sure of that. But, it doesn’t really sink in until you have “one of those moments” like mine: when I realized my baby was walking, talking, & waving “bye-bye” as she went to music time.

So my little Valentine, here is a poem that I will hold near & dear to my heart. To remind me to cherish each day, the good & the bad… because you are only little once & only for a little while.

“From the moment you hold your baby in your arms you will never be the same. You might long for the person you were before, when you had freedom and time and nothing in particular to worry about. You will know tiredness like you never knew before. Days will run into days that are exactly the same. Full of feedings and burping. Nappy changes & crying. Whining & fighting. Naps or a lack of naps. It might seem like a never-ending cycle. But don’t forget… there is a last time for everything & babies don’t keep.

There will come a time when you will feed your baby for the very last time. They will fall asleep on you after a long day & it will be the last time you ever hold your sleeping child. One day you will carry them on your hip & then set them down & never pick them up that way again. You will scrub their hair in the bath for one last time & from that day on they will want to bathe alone. They will hold your hand to cross the street & then will never reach for it again. They will creep into your room at midnight for cuddles & it will be the last night you ever wake to this. One afternoon you will sing, “the wheels on the bus,” & do all the actions to never sing that song again..

They will kiss you goodbye at the school gate & the next day they will ask to walk to the gate alone. You will read a final bedtime story & wipe your last dirty face. They will run to you with arms raised for the very last time… The thing is, you won’t even realize it’s the last time until there are no more times. Even then, it will take you a while to realize. So while you are living in these times, remember there are only so many of them & when they are gone… you will yearn for just one more day of them. For one last time.”

 

XO~ Kate